Favs.

My newest favorite verses. These seriously mean so much to me...

" Thou whom I have taken from the ends of the earth, and called thee from the chief men thereof, and said unto thee, Thou art my servant; I have chosen thee, and not cast thee away.
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
Behold, all they that were incensed against thee shall be ashamed and confounded: they shall be as nothing; and they that strive with thee shall perish.
Thou shalt seek them, and shalt not find them, even them that contended with thee: they that war against thee shall be as nothing, and as a thing of nought.
For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee." Isaiah 41:9-13

 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:37-39

for me!

Some verses the Lord has given me this week, a couple through my mom and a friend.

"For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ."
2 Corinthians 10:4-5

I am overwhelmed by Satan- but the Lord is not.
       "The Lord shall fight for you, and you shall hold your peace."
Exodus 14:14

"How precious are thy thoughts unto me, O God! How great is the sum of them!
Psalm 139:17

"Ye are of God little children, and have overcome them; because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world."
1 John 4:4 

"I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
Jeremiah 29:11

New blog

It's probably obvious I have a few specific thoughts on my mind. Oh, but I do. ;)
Last week, I had a mental breakdown. I keep trying to explain it to myself, and a few other people, and to be honest, I do a bad job. I think it's best to simply say, I was morbidly depressed and suicidal, because of my own thoughts. I know there were satanic powers telling me lies. I am so shocked now by what my thoughts were, how I felt and what I was convinced of. It is terrifying.
I think it happened because of things I went through, yes, bad choices and mistakes I made for over 4 years, and being around demonic thoughts for that long. Not only am I incredibly confused by what real care and love look like, I have a severe weakness now, and Satan knows it. He spoke his lies to me through someone else for so long, and now that I left that situation, he just keeps the damage going in my own mind. I know it is him and not me, and after this last experience, I know I can't stand up to him. I'm so helpless against him - I've never felt so helpless before, so completely unable to defend or protect myself. The Lord is the only one that can save me, that has, did and does.
I have to truly depend on Him completely, and He is protecting me. That thought is something I keep saying to myself, and I love that it is slowly becoming more "truth" to me.
With that in mind, I have been writing down my thoughts in a notebook, and taking each one before the Lord. It isn't anything special, it's so simple and childishly truthful that it's embarrassing, but it's a tool I believe He is using to heal me. And I'll be honest, it really helps. I'm proud of myself for doing it (a big deal), and I kinda wanna share some of it on here.
Just so you know, I kinda feel stupid for being so dramatic. But at the same time, I don't feel like I'm being dramatic enough! Like, seriously- I was a basket case a few days ago, ready to drive my car off the road, because I was convinced I was unloved. That's kinda dramatic =P. Even more dramatic is the difference between that state of mind and my mind currently, when I'm actually believing and trusting God.
Anyways, life is dramatic ;).